I struggle to get new friends during social gatherings. I never come up with things to say fast enough, I find small talk difficult, and the person I meet walk away, thinking I`m a bore. I love to be social, so this is one of the toughest parts of being an introvert to me.
I know this is a typical trait, but it makes me sad and I feel like I`m broken, that it is something wrong with me.
After a “thousand” experiences like this, I give up, ending up alone in a corner somewhere
When I feel like I`ve been there long enough I sneak out and walk home feeling that I did something wrong. Everybody else seems to have a good time talking with each other
The following days I come up with lots of things I could have said and done. Oh brain, why wouldn`t you tell me this when I was there. Times like that I often wish I was an extrovert.
Knowing this is going to happen every time I go to a social gathering I try to avoid them, feeling bad at the same time. The people inviting me will never invite me again. I have to choose, either end up alone in a corner or come up with a bad excuse and spend a night with a conscious constantly beating me up for not going.
Meeting a person that gives me time is so rare that when it happens I`m so happy and relieved that I don`t know what to do of pure joy